|Your Reflection can be Deceptive.|
By Astra Moon
Posted 15 Jun 2012 14:18
As I state in the title, what you see looking back at you when you look in the mirror, it can deceive you. Here, let me explain.
I'm a sucker for stories about birth defects, diseases, illness, medical syndromes...they fascinate me. So many things that can go wrong...I read about them for fun. This is what I was doing last night. I was just googling photos of babies with birth defects....some of the results you get, they're horrid.
Then, I look in the mirror, & I think the same thing about myself. The situation is so very different though. You see, I have Clinical Major Depression, because of that, I also have an extremely low self esteem & find fault with almost everything about me. Even the medication I'm on doesn't combat my issues with my image.
You're probably asking, "what does this have to do with birth defects". The 2 have nothing in common, my depression & birth defects, they are unrelated. So here's where they collide in my book: Every day I look in the mirror & I see hatred for myself, genuine, impassioned DISGUST for my image. Then, looking at those babies last night suddenly....I didn't think so badly of myself.
OK, I have bad skin. Yea, so I am very over-weight. Sure, I have bad eye sight. But, other then those, all very common issues, my appearance is normal, not the best, but I certainly have nothing to cry about. These poor babies, most of which didn't live past a few hours. Some didn't have brains, some didn't have eyes, some were missing arms &/or legs...& I cry about such minimal things.
I'll always have issues with my image, that's isn't going to change, but I've learned by looking & studying that while I hate what I see, things aren't half as bad as what some parents have to go through. My problems aren't even NEAR as bad as what some NEWBORNS have to go through in the first MINUTES of their lives.
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